Obsessions and other things

My mom called this morning to say my Granny (a dear family friend who adoped my sisters and me when she heard we had no grandparents) is dying. This makes me really sad and sorry that I never made sure she met my husband, and also just plain tired. With Dad's health issues and other worries, I'm just plain worn out. And yet... I found a source for barn scraps and want to charge off and get some this afternoon! I'm building a lasagna bed along 100+feet of fenceline and can't afford to have all that topsoil or compost trucked in. I plan to gather leaves and manures and heap 'em as much as I can along the fences, in the hopes that it'll make the ground diggable and organically alive come Spring. So much to learn, so much work to do!