What to do with myself...

I actually don't have any work to do this afternoon. Not any paying work, anyway. And it's gorgeous outside. So why do I feel so paralyzed? I can't make the decision to just go play outside, or go to the gym, or read a book. I feel like I have to sit here and look like I'm working at least... But who's to see? What's to know? Incredible how anxious this makes me feel. I'm gonna research planting roses and then I'm going outside to play, for goodness sake. So there.