Musings at the start

For years, I took great pleasure in journaling a list of my accomplishments in the previous year (both material and spiritual) and then setting down goals for the next year. I was always pleasantly surprised at how many of the last year's goals I'd accomplished, sometimes in unexpected ways. And it seemed like I was in tune with some of the zeitgeist, this fuzzy self-help cloud that used to talk about "making a cause" and positive thinking and achievement. I don't think I did it last year, or if I did, it was already starting to feel hollow. Perhaps it's just fine for people who need motivation -- I'm not really one of those. I'm over-motivated, most of the time. Now I see all that goal-setting as creating an illusion of control. With everything that's happened in the past year, I'm more interested in considering what I've learned, and learning how to enjoy each day more as it comes -- rather than racking up accomplishments. Accomplishments make for an impressive obituary.