Metamorphose

...which is the verb form of "metamorphosis" I read something this weekend about how caterpillars become butterflies. You'd think that, if you pried open their chrysalises (chrysali?) in a fit of ruthless curiosity, you'd find something half-butterfly, half-wiggly-worm. Sort of like Jeff Goldblum in mid-Fly. However, this article said you'd find a tube of goo. The caterpillar comepletely dissolves itself, and then is remade into a butterfly. So there's a period of intense uncertainty, vulnerability and discomfort. I get that. I feel that what's happening is another fundamental shift--away from self-determination and self-sufficiency, and even the concept that those are qualities to aspire to. I am not sure what the alternative looks like at all, and in fact suspect that if I try to picture it, it's just another way of trying to control it. My sponsor always asks "are you ready to become your Higher Power's version of you?" I've been making incremental changes for years, and this is just another one of the larger shifts. Who knows who I'll be? On the less esoteric side, I'm writing this while sitting in a Schlotsky's, using free wireless access. How cool am I? Only a year or so behind the curve, but still...